Faith, Family, Friends, and Green, Green Grass
Amazing. It only took us 3 years to grow this gem of green grass and I must say, my Big Bear did a great job. I love this time of year - the leaves change color and the sun is bright. The days are crisp and breezy. Just the other day, I was up bright and early and looked out the window to this glorious bed of grass that is now carpeting our lawn. I grabbed my camera and clicked away.
I don't mind telling you that it does frighten me a bit to think that all of this was for naught. Bob having lost his job in September, forces me to reflect on our blessings and I hope they continue. It isn't getting easier, that's for sure. We've put so much into making this house a home, and a comfortable place to raise our children. We've remodeled, repainted, relandscaped - so much effort, and to think it could all be lost if Bob doesn't find a job soon. It gives me the chills just thinking about it.
I live on faith. In these tough economic times, I believe we all need our faith, our family, and our friends. For me, it helps to write these feelings down. I have discovered that I have a wittier sense of humor when Big Bear is happy (and employed), and although he puts on a brave face right now, I know he is stressed and worried about the future - our future. As am I.
When I was outside with my camera, Sarah ran up to me - "Mom! Look!" She and Matthew had been stacking logs on the new log rack that Bob built 2 weeks ago, when she found this log with a hole the shape of a heart. I'm not going to get all sentimental here, but that log and that heart pretty much sums up our life here.
As for the job search, nobody appears to be hiring. Bob did interview, twice, for a large local company, but unfortunately, they pulled the plug on all hiring until spring. In the meantime, Bob spends his days looking, researching, making calls, networking, and trying to make headway in his career. So, I hope that you will bear with me during this difficult time. My humor may not be as rip-roaring as it was just a couple of months ago, but I'll be back on a lighter note soon - promise.
I know we aren't the only ones out there having to dig into our savings and retirement to survive between jobs, and we certainly won't be the last. For all those families out there who are struggling to get by - I'm with ya. I am praying for all of us, and I have faith that this too will pass.
For now, I enjoy my time with my children and my Big Bear, I love working on Raisin Toast, I've opened up a plethora of good memories from years past digging thru all the old family photos and restoring them in Photoshop, and I've been painting - between mountains of laundry and trying, without much success, to keep this place clean and organized. Forget it. Impossible. That is not the most important task in my life anyway. The laundry can wait a day or two.
And more news from the homefront - it seems that I have Mersa (MRSA). I thought I got bit by a spider on the right side of my right hand. That was 2 months ago. Since then I've tried almost everything to clear it up and nothing has worked. When the infection continued to spread to the size of a quarter, I called my doctor. I'm on one of those nuclear bomb antibiotics in hopes that it fights this infection before it gets into my bloodstream. I lost a dear friend to Mersa 14 years ago, and I'm not about to follow in his ill and deadly path. All of this and we no longer have health insurance. Doesn't life stink sometimes?
Okay, even I'm not finding this post to be filled with pleasantries, but hey - that's life. At least that is my life at the moment. And yes, I know that this is only a moment in the scheme of things.
Esoterica: Blessings will find us if we only have faith. - Susan Vaughn